For the past little while, I have been feeling very useless. Feeling like I am less than a Christian.. less than a human.. less than a mother or a fiend.
It's hard to be alone sometimes. Alot of the time. And I know that a lot of you can attest to that fact. We all know that Jesus is always with us but sometimes it's good to have someone around that's 'wearing skin', if you know what I mean.
A while back, I received an encouraging email from a friend of mine. It was thes story of the cracked pot. I'm not sure if you're familiar with the story or not but if you aren't, let me know and I'll try to find it on the internet and post it on Facebook.
The point of my story today, though, is this. I had already read the story of the cracked pot several times before and I was blessed by it every time I read it. The thing is, it never really held any kind of a personal meaning just for me in it ... until recently.
Lately, I have become aware that God was trying to tell me something through that story. He's probably been trying to tell me for a very long time.. and so I wanted to share it with you as I'm sure that it will strike a cord with at least one person reading this story.
I am not perfect. I never will be perfect. I have flaws. I have quirks in my character and in my personality that some people will always reject me because of. I hurt people. I have hurt many. Some people have forgiven me. Some people haven't. Some may forgive me one day. Some never will.
I guess what I'm trying to say is this; As we go through life, we will never be able to please everyone. I have wasted too many of my years trying to make other people happy and, for some reason, have always come out of it feeling empty and unfulfilled. Lost, even.
One thing is sure. God loves me. He sent His only Son, Jesus, to die on the cross for my sins. He loves me regardless of the stupid things I've done and still do. He forgives me for my transgressions and, even more than that, He has thrown my transgressions deep in to the Sea of Forgetfulness where I'm supposed to leave them.
I am a cracked pot. I leak. I make mistakes. I feel less than full and less than worthy but God has really impressed upon my heart that even through my brokenness I am able to bless others. Maybe even BECAUSE of my brokenness I am able to bless others.
Because I haven't lived a perfect life. Because I have panic attacks and OCD. Because I suffer from depression. Because I struggle with Borderline Personality Disorder. Because I have been an abusive person and gone through abortion, rejection, drugs and alcohol.. maybe I am able to relate to more people that I would be able to relate to had I NOT had those experiences in my life.
Know this. God needs YOU!!! No matter how unimportant you might feel. It doesn't matter if you feel that you have nothing to offer to God and nothing to offer to this world.. That is a lie from the enemy of our souls. YOUare important to God and He needs YOU to be YOURSELF and to go out into the world and witness to the hurting, the abused, and the battered. Not everyone has the gift or the ability to be able to touch a hurting or broken soul but YOU have it... so use it for good. Use it for God.
Be encouraged. Know that YOU are important in and to the Kingdom of the Lord God Almighty DESPITE and maybe even BECAUSE of your brokenness.
God bless you as you keep on being YOU!!
~~ Peace, LOVE and Happiness ~~
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