Ok.... so, as most of you know... of late, I've been going through some BLEEP.... BLEEP and more BLEEP. I hate to say it's commonplace but, let's admit it, it's happening more than it should be.
This time though, something's different. It's stronger than me... it's bigger than me... and I don't know how to stop it... and I'm scared.... so I've been opening up about it and, for the most part, getting good advice and help and yes... PRAYERS!!
The other day, a friend of mine said (posted) to me "Kelly, can't you see that you're reaping what you've been sowing?" I have to be honest here. At first blush, I took offense to her comment. I was taken aback. I mean... what on earth could I have POSSIBLY done to deserve the BLEEP that's been coming my way lately? Nothing..NOTHING, I tell you. I haven't even left my house. I've been here.. quiet... unassuming... the usual.... but I digress.
The very next day, as it sometimes happens, I got to thinking about what my friend had said.... and realized that it wasn't anything I had DONE but that it was something(s) that I had SAID that are/were causing really bad things to manifest in my life. (The stupidity of it all, of course, being that I'm speaking mainly out of fear of the unknown and actually causing the very things I fear(ed) to happen in my life).
Then, I had a vision. Yes, I guess that means God still talks to me. I'm grateful for that. It was one of my fears... that He believed me when I said I didn't want Him, need Him or love Him anymore.
Anyways.. the vision.. yes...
Fluffy white dandelions. Don't we just love them? (well.. some of us at least). Those puffy little cotton balls on unbreakable stems that sway in the breeze and taunt us... tease us... until we simply can't resist it anymore. We run over, yank the fluffy out of the ground.... inhale and.... bllllllllllooooooooooooooooooooooowwwwww.
And they're off.... the adorable little seedlings... floating through the air with no direction.. in reckless abandon.... no flight pan... no blueprint... they're just... flying.... some are flying alone... others are clumped together in little clusters.
"Amazing", we think...
Yes.
Amazing.
Until... a few months later when we walk to our front yard and discover that 9,000 ugly yellow dandelions have suddenly appeared out of nowhere. Okay.. maybe 9,000 is a slight exaggeration but you know what I mean.
God was telling me something... maybe the message my friend was trying to give me but I'm not sure. I have yet to ask. He was telling me that each one of those seemingly harmless little seedlings had the potential to land, take root, and cause something nasty to grow and, literally, overtake my yard.
I know what I need to do. I need to leave the pretty, fluffy little dandelions there. I need to not yank them out of the ground. I need to not blow the little white paratroopers all over the place. I need to stop... think... and pray before I speak and, like my parents used to say, if I have nothing nice to say, then I need to say nothing.
Just my two cents.
~~ Peace, LOVE, and Happiness ~~
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